
Poetry
1996
Poetry
1996
Don't judge harshly
that which the soul
pours forth in its own discovery!



by year
1996​
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LETTER TO MY LOVE
Your thirsty eyes drink deeply from the waters of my soul.
Together we are buoyant as the river makes us whole.
A river runs between us,
Though no one can hear a sound.
Everflowing to connect us,
Its power is profound.
Sweet songbird, your voice awakens my holy wings within,
As my heart and those of angels, your melodies do win.
This time and space we so little share
Is to my soul’s lament,
Still time spent in your presence
Is a passage of enchantment.
Gentle lover your lips seem to speak of a dance upon my skin.
And so my body trembles, let our song of love begin.
And though not often do we touch,
I feel it in your smile,
Your energy washes over me
And it’s been too long awhile.
A river caresses the shoreline as it flows our to the sea.
If your hands could speak-
How breathless would they be upon me?
Jan 23, 1996
BEGINNING
Let the voice of the wind,
Sing the melody of time;
Let our union begin
Sweet love sublime.
Jan 1996
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SOUL DOMAIN
If your soul was the ocean, and mine the dolphin,
How far into your depths would I attempt to swim?
If my soul was the sky and yours the eagle,
Spread your wings, let your flight begin.
Feb 1996
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WHISPER OF EMBRACE
Your eyes to my soul illuminate.
Body to body intoxicate.
Communicate, with words caress-
Until my body your arms possess.
Feb. 1996
TOUCH
Shed your clothes, time, ache and fear
Rest your body to mine so near.
Nudge your soul to open, let me walk within
As our love sublime and coalescence begin.
March 20 1996
EVERMORE
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Seeing the day then evening’s face
Your love leaves me its eternal trace.
To have you here with me again-
I know not how, I know not when.
For time to me, he cannot tell
How long without you I am meant to dwell.
For now the clock shall mesmerize-
My soul, where once it was your eyes.
Still, water of love in our river streams
Now blends with tears or so it seems.
Where once within your soul I’d soar-
I’m left without wings in evermore.
March 20 1996
TREMBLE FLAME
Fire in my soul
Your body and mine emblaze.
Thoughts of you they burn
As to me you do amaze.
A fire burns between us
And to my body does ignite.
To our love I’ll hold the candle,
And within the flame we shall unite.
To be near your warmth
To touch your face-
I await-
Until my lips upon your body trace.
The flames within you shine
Around my body they entwine.
I’ll touch you now today,
And tonight you will be mine.
Mar. 21, 1996
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BLESS THEIR SOULS
How many more times could I do it?
How many more hearts is there to slay?
How many more times did I choose solitude
Than within love dare to stay?
Bless their souls I never meant to hurt.
Bless my soul that I should be so cruel.
Bless the future that I so lately dread,
With my heart of stone and love so cool.
Be it that I never let them in,
Even though they’ve been so long inside.
Be it that I can’t begin
As I have no place left to hide.
And who shall sing their praises
For their efforts though still to their demise...
For all my lovers now the angels sing,
As left in silence, my soul to death it seems to cling.
March 5, 1996
PRECIOUS MOMENTS
Such sweet time I await-
Any moment in your presence.
You and I alone
As father time, he walks away.
How long has passed?
How long have I-
Been lost within your eyes?
How long indeed
You would neither know;
For what is time
When you’re lost within my soul?
Spring 1996
SONG OF LOVE
Stranger then than now
Your melodies did I capture-
To store with curiosities,
Like your eyes that speak to me.
Not as peculiar, yet still familiar
Your presence haunts my heart.
Once here only in song-
Then soon at my side.
Please come back to me-
Too soon our night became a day.
The day that aches for what had
Made its evening smile.
A silent song remains
Of which we did not sing.
Now fate begins to write for us-
And we hear our song of love.
May 13, 1996
I COULD BE WITH HIM
I found myself in his arms
But you were wrapped around me
I found myself wanting to know
If I could even be with you
If I was to let this other love go.
I could be with him
As long as no one ever speaks your name
Such a sweet melody,
what will become of me?
I could be with him
As long as the night never comes
Coz when darkness falls,
I’ll want to be with you.
I love to be around him
Though it’s true, he’s not you-
And it’s then my body does not respond
And my soul it sneaks away
But never could I hurt him, and so this I pray.
I could be with him
Just not in this lifetime
Coz bein’ me just reminds me of you.
May 27, 1996
FAITH
At fate’s request I let you go
As an angel held my hand.
To let you go was for me to grow,
This I’ve come to understand.
Though at first I may have wept
Many a day without your face,
My heart has come to percept
My life is not without your trace.
Just being me reminds me of you
No matter who is at my side.
My lesson is to love with greatest virtue
And to let courage be my guide.
To let you go was indeed the test,
As soon my love, you will be here.
I’ve loved, I’ve grown and now will rest
Within our love I pray the Lord has blessed.
June 13, 1996
SANCTITY
Your soul, your fire
Your eyes, your smile-
Make my heart sing of love
Though I must love another for a while.
But still you have such power
This way you make my heart shine.
Though now I am not with you,
I hope soon you will be mine.
The very thought of you
Gives me such a love
From sweet divine a source
So high above.
Why is it within your eyes,
Is where I see the light?
Man with the shimmering soul,
Where I get lost to my delight.
The hour of your birth
The sun was at its peak
The moment awash with angels,
Middle of the day and of the week.
And within your love I see-
Angels smiling there for all.
Your light embraces this land
And no longer will the darkness fall.
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And if at your side-
Never again do I stand-
I’ll know I’ve felt your power
And my love it will expand.
Our kind of love
That makes my heart soar,
Simply inspires me
To give love forevermore.
Evermore your love I’ll feel,
Your love my soul drinks of-
Not just to be with you,
But to simply say, “I love”.
June 1996
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THE DAY MY LOVE
MOVED ACROSS THE WATER
You’re leaving this land
Gone to the farther shore.
Ocean floor retreats some more
And I know you walk on water.
Out of our hearts
Friendship did it finally shine.
Our love and faith did refine,
To let us walk on water.
You’ll always be out there somewhere
Though to where you are I’m blind.
You’re sure to be on my mind,
Though you’ve walked across the water.
On the distant shore
You found your new love
She was the one you were dreaming of
And I’m glad to be your friend.
And so you leave here today,
As I relive every moment
From our meeting ‘til the present-
You’re set to cross the water.
Love not within our love,
Grows in our new friendship.
Filled with light and spirit.
I could fly across the water.
Though it’s not forever
From my world you now depart.
Look within your heart
And there you’ll find my strength.
Once dancing in the sand
Soon Sands of Time they shift.
Though time has the gift,
Of when we’ll meet again.
July 12 1996
HE
Should’ve never let him in
For fear I’d ever cast him out.
And darker grows my soul
As angels step aside.
Never really wondered
If there was any room
Where in my secret place
Feelings for you I hide.
What would he do
If he ever knew of you?
Which way would he run,
To make our love come undone?
Should’ve tried to pass the test
I was supposed to wait it out.
Wait for you I should believe
Our love was coming through.
But gone so long and since
Were you my dear, I faltered.
Thought I could be with him,
And forever wait for you.
What would he do
If he ever knew of you?
If he was to ever find
You’re always on my mind.
Dear Lord I must ask
Oh what is it I’ve done?
Where is it I’ve failed?
Where is it I can find my heart?
To find this love of mine
For this man who stands before me.
And not the man with whom
Three years I’ve been apart.
And what of you, my lost love?
You’re coming back again.
Still virtuous, there should be love for us,
If harder had we tried.
But worthy would I be
To have you at my side?
If my lover’s tears would fall,
If one moment he has cried.
July 26 1996
YOUR EYES
Should the light of the Sun burn out
And the stars no longer shine,
I would still find my way,
From the light in your eyes divine.
July 1996
SENDING MY LIGHT
Do my thoughts appear in your mind
Trembling through your heart?
As do my fingers as I trace your face
On a little picture, so long we’ve been apart.
Does my love wash over you
Virtuous, this energy I send your way.
Patient, do I stand a thousand miles away.
Always at your side does my spirit stay.
But I’m a fool to keep on waiting
Or so some would have me feel.
But what is time apart
Our souls are one, our love is real.
And you know wherever I am
It’s to you I’m always near.
Your inner smile, your inner voice.
I’m within you, I heal your fear.
And if you see or hear angelic wing
Know it’s me, know you’re not imagining.
I’ve been there inside you-
From our ancient beginning.
And just as you are within me now
I bathe you in my warmth and light
Be it your body or spirit
That rests with me tonight.
July 1996
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PRAYER
Blessed be you gave breath to me
Dear Lord I seek to be your light.
Truth be found, I’d find my way,
If even I lost my sight.
I just wanted to say thank-you
And let you know that I’ll still try
To carry on in spite of
The sorrow that drops by.
Faith in me falls sometimes silent
Where courage is a tiny voice.
In the darkest day still you are here
I need only make my choice.
Within me I want to see
The virtue inside man.
My eyes view the dark, the light
The ancient struggle since time began.
As your warrior I stand and fight
To bring Heaven unto Earth.
I’ll try a little every day
To give this purpose to my birth.
July 1996
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YOU
In my world
My changing world today.
Why do I hear your voice?
Why does it carry me away?
Why is it I think about you,
Though to someone else I’m near?
I sense the time is soon-
That soon you’ll reappear.
Worthy is our past-
The beginning of our friendship.
But ruthless would be the time
Where from each other we would slip.
Still sleeping is our love
As angels watch the wheel
That turns toward your touch
One day again I’ll feel.
You who takes my breath away
You who sets me free-
Another woman says she loves you,
But all along it’s still been me.
I will quench your thirsty soul
And no longer will you cry.
Look for me within your memory
And tonight we’re sure to fly.
When I lay me down to sleep
I feel you at my side
As distance, time and ache-
To our hearts cannot divide.
And why does my soul shine
Just to be your friend?
Such a love it is the goal.
To such a love there is no end.
To know you’re in the world
Makes my love grow brighter still.
Though I’m with another now-
Your love gives me life and will.
Bless it be your gift to me
Love- though still we are apart.
I invite every angel to look within
And see the wings you give my heart.
July 4 1996
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NOW I LAY MY HEART TO WEEP
And he found me
From between the strands of time
He came to me, as I was lost-
Wandering amongst life’s bedtime stories
Wrapped in memories of you.
Encased in golden sunlight
He turned to me and smiled
I was awakened.
Gentle as an angel’s breath
I heard him call my name.
I lost the dream, I lost your face.
And I turned to him again.
Fascination
Silent communication
Sweet Intoxication
There’s so much his eyes can tell me
So much they have to say,
And from his smile
He does indeed, he sweeps my heart away.
But what of you?
Sweet phantom of the past
Could you ever again appear?
Wander back to my side
And to my soul so near.
For only with you
Could my soul begin to fly.
But his eyes seem to promise
A flight just as high.
Still clinging to slumber
And dreams of you,
I blinked and looked away.
Yet his light had quickly filled me
And I feared that it would stay.
Suspended in time, our love will still grow
As I must learn to live today.
Cradled in tomorrow is our reunion
But for now this time is where I stay.
But I will not forget you
I will never let you go.
And as I lay my heart to weep
I pray the Lord and angels
Protect our love for now they keep.
Summer 1996
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THE TREE
Though His love alone should suffice
His kindness lends us little signs,
That angels do deliver us,
But without our thanks, cease to assign.
Were it for one too many signs I’d asked
However patiently-
Like being hungry for the fruit,
But from such, forget the tree.
In silence were the angels
For the lesson they would teach.
As higher grew the tree
‘Til the fruit was out of reach.
If a fruit were now to fall
Such a sign that it would be!
But would that mean that I love him,
Or that my lover, he loves me?
So many signs I needed
That beneath the tree I lay in such depressed retire.
But then from its shelter and surely strong support
To the tree I began to thus admire.
Beyond the fruit what beauty to behold
And such life from emerald vines.
Through this canopy that sheltered me
Such divine a light it shines!
Awakened from my state
Danced I around the tree.
A tree of such holy design
However once, I could not see.
Open arms- my Lord I praise thee!
From your kindest signs more time I will spend-
In grace and gratitude I understand-
And from the tree then fell is fruit
And into my open hand.
Aug 12, 1996
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LOVE AWAKE
So long my dear you’ve been away
Walking on the farther shore.
You know your love never left me,
But there was nothing left to hold on for.
I could never let go your power,
Yes your love still evolves here within.
I sang our love a lullaby-
Asleep it fell perhaps to wake again.
Around the sun we did revolve
Too many times to tell;
If our love would ever wake
If again it would compel.
And yet now I do await,
A look within your eyes!
It is now sweet love awake!
Our time is here, let love arise!
Sept. 21 1996
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SLEEPING LOVE IN NIGHTMARE
Sleeping love awoke and waited
For I had summoned it at last.
Finally you’d returned,
Through all the time that slowly passed.
With once sleeping love awakened
I began to ache for your sweet touch.
Love no longer lay in silence,
And it expected far too much.
I guess with all my faith
My eyes had fallen blind.
To any people whose actions
To our fate would not be kind.
And so unlike the morning
Where you wake with sunlight on you skin-
Sleeping love awoke in my heart
Where the sun was soon to set within.
Creeping darkness devours light
And followed the purest in our love.
Angels cried and had to step aside
It was our test from up above.
To each other’s side we almost made it-
Precious time and space we were to share.
But darker grew the forces
That gave sleeping love waking nightmare.
My heart knows you would have wanted
To be there at my side.
But circumstance and fate
This time, to us, was to divide.
Sleeping love will stay awake on vigil
To battle darkness for control.
And next time with my light and love
I will be there to fill your soul.
Sept. 27 1996
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EARTH AND MOON
Baby, since I met you
My feet have never
Touched the ground.
I’m like the body that wandered
Into your cosmic pull.
And just like the Earth and Moon
To you
I’ll always be around.
As the Sun and stars
Shine upon you day or night
My light and love
Won’t disappear
And as sure as the Moon
Would never wander from our world-
For you
I will be here.
As many times
As there are stars
In the skies
You can call me
And I’ll be there by your side.
Like the marriage of the Earth and Moon
Around the Sun we circle and
To each other
Our fate is tied.
Sept 29 1996
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MY LESSON
It’s raining coincidence
Or should I say
Everything shows a sign,
I’ll be with you today.
Most angelic presence
At my side I feel-
Always guiding me to you,
Because my lover, my love is real.
Gentle signs as I await
Prove what I have always known-
The soul I see in your eyes
Yes indeed, is of my own.
With such longing did I fail
To see reality- I was blind.
With too much patience from the signs
Time left me behind.
Too fateful had I grown
That we were meant to be-
I left all the work to angels,
And with my own eyes I did not see.
That to be with you
I would have to fight
Against the odds
To be with you that night.
And so upon my faith I fell
When our night had come and gone-
Still without you at my side,
How would I go on?
Dear Lord, I’ve come to know
The faults within my faith
Right I was for him to wait
But one must run to meet their fate.
Faith is not to be invested
In something so distinct-
As a wish upon specific outcome
Even if our souls are linked.
Inner peace is work of faith
That there is so divine a plan-
That things will happen if meant to be,
If written since Time began.
When faith feels comfy, it will be tested
And a lesson one must learn-
For what would I really know of faith
If its virtue I did not earn.
And so again for my love I do await
With gentle trust our story will unfold
I just have to prove myself worthy
Of the faith I so dearly hold.
Oct 8-11 1996
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FREE MY WORLD
I turn the lights out
And I’ll lie here and wait for morning.
It’s really dark now
But I’m finished waitin’ on ya.
Night speaks
But I don’t call your name.
You live your life
So far away from me.
Somewhere, sometime
You will be here again.
Somehow, and someway
I won’t care about it anyway.
I wanna be free
Free my world
I watch the clock pace
As I lie here the time in coming.
It’s getting thick now
But from no more fears I’m running
I stand on this faith all by myself
Break free from waiting
Even if it kills me.
I wanna be free
Free my world.
Nov 26 1996
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TO LOVE YOU TO LET YOU GO
To love you
I pray alone
I’ll wait the night
To find you gone.
Gently I let you out
If only for the moment
To make room
For more of me.
Across the continent
Still I hear your heart
Just remember
Part of me is yours.
Father Time
Will turn the page
And soon
I’ll be back within your eyes.
But to make it
To our future
It is here that I
Let go the past, the present.
I rest on faith now.
If I was the one
I will be the one again.
Upon this ache
No longer
Can I stand
I will fly...
Outward will I look
Beyond the bleeding sun
To face the fear
Of the echo within.
Wrong were the choices
These days that I have made,
So fate went and hid you babe,
But it never will again.
These times apart
You may not see me
Smiling beside you
But still I am, just the same.
Dec 1, 1996
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GET YOU NOT FORGET YOU
I might be waiting
I might be wondering ‘bout you
Where’d you go
Sometimes even I don’t know.
It’s hard to know
When to stop remembering
It’s hard to know
When to forget about you.
So I’ll wait I’ll wait.
Having you to talk with
Having you to walk with
How would I know
It’s been such a long time
Love evolves
Love revives
Time will test
But our love will survive
That’s why I’ll wait I’ll wait
Coz I’m gonna get you
Not forget you.
I’m gonna get you
Not forget you.
This time I spend
Could be time spent with you if
Father Time, one day he made you mine
Time forgets
My love can count the seconds
When it’s been too long
And far apart we are.
I’ll wait
I’ll wait
Chorus
Bridge
I’ll wait
Just in case
After all this time you’ve
You’ve been waiting there
But how would I ever know that
You’ve been waiting there,
Waiting there for me.
Chorus
Dec. 23 1996
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FAMILIAR STRANGER
‘Tis love that I feel
Though I’ve never seen you before
Your eyes I recognize
Your voice in my heart
How manylives have we been apart?
Do you believe?
Tell me do you believe?
If I could go back in time
Your heart has been mine a thousand times
Those eyes that now shine into mine
And through I see,
You’re so familiar to me.
I know there is Jesus
I see him, I see him through your eyes.
Take my, take my hand
Your touch, mystifies.
Shed your clothes, shed your skin.
Do you believe?
Tell me, do you believe?
If I could go back in time
How many times have you been mine?
And those eyes that now shine into mine...
And through I see
You’re so familiar to me.
Even when you smile and walk away
You never leave.
Your love, your light still remains
Though you’re a thousand miles away.
Dec. 1996
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SNOW
Alone with winter in my heart I stand.
Seems you’re halfway across the universe.
Another blue Christmas,
But I ain’t blue
I’ve got it worse.
Oh, December 26th evergreen
Cut down but not selected,
You wait in the snow.
Only you could bear empathy
To the emptiness I’ve come to know.
If a single snowflake were now to fall
Such a lonely journey to what glistens below.
But what greater reward of union,
Than when snowflake becomes snow.
Two presents did I ask for.
Strength and courage from above.
To make it to the day,
Where I’ll be with my dearest love.
Next Christmas, to be with you I pray.
Gifts of love to share,
One future wintry day.
For our Lord, today we celebrate!
Merry Christmas baby,
Though you are so far away.
December 25, 1996