
Poetry
1997
Poetry
1997
Don't judge harshly
that which the soul
pours forth in its own discovery!



by year
1997
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SHACKLES TO SUNGLASSES
You walk from a crawl but one day you will fall
And crawl all over again.
From birth to life, to death and ashes,
Your life it changes from shackles to sunglasses.
From night til dawn, from light til it's gone,
Your life it changes, keep your eyes on the horizon.
Your pain today, I have known,
Soon it will be yesterday, you'll have grown
And again I'll be beside you.
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YOU LIVE HERE
Why is it I wait for you?
There is a love here at my side
And he is waiting for me.
It seems there is a road I travel
But your memory wanders the same direction
And I keep offering it a ride.
I come home when I walk into your eyes
But here at home,
He’ll walk through my door
And then it’s his eyes I have to look into.
So maybe I’ll travel another road
Close my eyes and pretend that I am blind.
But still it won’t leave you behind.
Coz you live here in my mind.
You live here at my side.
I tried to be with him
But your presence stirred within me.
He let me go and hoped,
That I’d be happy someday.
For the times you’re not here-
Times too often.
The closest friend
I find in him
And he is always here.
Why is it hard to tell
Who should be a lover
And who is meant to be a friend.
How do you know in the beginning,
Who will be there in the end?
But reason and love
Know nothing of
Each other.
Then it doesn’t really matter
That we’re still apart.
Because you live here,
You live here in my heart.
Jan. 1 1997
THE SEND OFF
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He’s been my precious torment
In between the times we’ve had
If you can’t lose what you ain’t never had
Letting him go can’t be that bad
I guess it’s time, I’ve got to go now
Gonna tell my heart this is where I’m at
I’m not gonna wait any longer
Won’t be easy, but I like it like that.
Goodbye baby
Goodbye
Goodbye baby
If I die another day I’ve wasted
If all this time for hime I’ve waited
Truth and faith gonna pray sweet Jesus
Prove I’m worthy of this faith that I hold.
So I guess it’s time, I’ve got to go now
Tell my heart just where I’m at
I’m not gonna wait any longer
Don’t make it easy, I like it like that.
Goodbye baby
Goodbye
Goodby baby
One day I’m gonna quit you baby
And right now looks to be the best time
I thought I could wait forever
But I’m here at your crossroads.
I guess it’s time, I’ve got to go now
Tell my heart this is where I’m at
I just can’t wait any longer
Gonna take it easy I like it like that
Goodbye baby
Jan 1997
THE DANCE
Love grants silence
Where lovers need no words
Thoughts create smiles
Like energy from a touch
Eyes that whisper
To the soul that is the ear,
A heart that beats
Because another breathes
Their bodies you see stand so near
But amongst the stars they are dancing...
We are dancing- like birds in flight
On angel breath.
And so we have existed-
Only not yet you are mine.
I await your return
The smile, the whisper, the dance divine.
Jan 15 1997
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STAY IN THE LIGHT
Time passes
Your soul
Through darkness-
Or is it I no longer see your light?
So long
It’s been
I cannot see in your eyes,
I can only see your face.
Are you still in His love-
Or is your soul now out of place?
Guard your sacred space-
I hope my love still leaves its trace.
Wander far?
I’m sure you wouldn’t
Our of His love, His light-
You couldn’t.
Stray-
From the ones who will break you.
Pray- for the ones who will take you
Toward the light.
Jan 22 1997
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SLEEPROVER
Can’t stay awake too long
I want this lonely day without you gone.
I want to be back in the dream I had last night.
You and I were only walking
And how I loved to be there talking with you.
But then I woke up and I laughed alone.
I’ll find another way to you
At night I’ll sleep and yes it’s true.
Somehow with you I know I’ve been, or so it seems.
My heart has found the other way
Though you are so far from me this day
Tonight I pray my spirit stray to you, see you in my dreams.
Wonder if you think how long
All this time apart has done us wrong
Wanna talk with you back by your side.
Somewhere in time there is a place
And how I’d love to see your face again.
But here I need only to close my eyes.
Feb 18, 1997
MY LIGHT
(This is a lyric that I ripped off and altered from one of my poems)
Across the field the raven flies
With death upon my door he cries
Nothing to cling to yet I remain
No water of love to help sustain
So to you I’ll run
My Lord, My Light
I’ll run to you
My love, my guiding light.
To get up I’d walk the darkest day
An angel kneels at my side to say
You’ve grown weak, indeed alas
But this my dear will come to pass.
Chorus
Faith in me falls sometimes silent
Where courage is a tiny voice
Still, in the darkness you are here
So divine your love, it heals my fears.
Chorus
Bridge
If life was easy we’d grow weak
There is a light for us to seek
No matter what sadness fills our lives
There is a reason, let faith arise.
Apr 2 1997
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SILENT LOVER
The one who has to wander far
Dear lover for a season
Not to wander back
Until destiny finds a reason.
My lover who midnight crowned
The keeper of my heart
The one who one midnight soon after
Time had named that we would part.
The lover of fewest words I’ve spoken
But to converse within your eyes.
Our smile or two first shared
That was soon to hypnotize.
Wonder in the moment
When to me you first had spoken
Painful was the moment
When my heart was softly broken.
I know you would have stayed
Were it not for things impossible
Stayed for one more long glance
Of our fascination inexhaustible.
August 3-7, 1997
LONLIER THAN YOU
Love turn to me
In case I never see you again.
Time be kind, and heal him for me.
Love never had in mind, a future for us.
And though I know, you know, I tried.
Despite the pain I know you’re going through
I bet that I’m still lonelier, lonlier than you.
Coz I’m alone, I await
Here alone
Waiting for the one, who’s been on my mind.
And though he’s far away, far away from me.
I still believe that we, though now lost, will find our way.
We never said goodbye, just left us for some other time.
I wish that I could know or let go of him.
Despite the pain I know you’re going through
I bet that I’m still lonlier, lonlier than you.
Coz I’m alone,
I await
Here alone.
Waiting for the one, who’s been on my mind.
Coz I never could forget his eyes,
I’ve been trying to free him from my mind.
That’s why I’m lonlier than you.
Coz I believe, I’ll forever be waiting
For him.
Sept 1 1997
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LOVE’S TRIUMPH
The Lord’s love lasts long
Longer than the grasp of what can only try
Try and try my faith.
Test and torture my soul.
My soul that Jesus already saved,
And God will always love.
Triumph over torture,
Let truth transcend my test.
This test that I now know
How to lay my pain to rest.
Seek light, seek strength
I know my way though the darkest day
To let the Lord and Love
Here within me stay.
Sept. 26 1997
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WHAT WOULD BE THE WORD
Goodbye last time it wasn’t said
For it did not cross upon our lips.
Instead, your breath was ll I heard
As you whispering your return in that haunting, fateful word.
Not long and we were to meet again
October the word that was to be our time.
I waited and listened ‘til autumn’s last leaf had hit the ground,
And as it did there was still no sign that you would be around.
Only your memory remained, and the promise and echoes of October.
And what would be the word that to now my soul would cling?
Seasons weathered it strong this word ‘faith’ that I would hold.
Indeed our word foretold, come four October’s our story would unfold.
Four years long and since, Lord knows it’s been so long a while.
For years we could not share a word, nor even a gentle smile.
Yet soon you shall arrive, how will I know if we’ve endured?
Breathless, could I speak, and if I had but one, what would be the word?
October 5 1997
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ECLIPSE
Like the moon you were my light in darkened skies
You set the path I would not stray, gave me light to find my way.
You were the one, you and only you were of the Sun.
All day I would adore and at night what I looked for.
And with my eyes wide I could find your light that darkest clouds could never hide.
So why to my surprise has this love met its demise?
How could the moon ever fall from its place in our sky?
Why is it the moon can hypnotize
But too soon the sun it stings my eyes?
Where do I stand when your light has turned to dark,
To break my heart, with mere words upon your lips-
Must be your soul now in eclipse.
I had to look to see if I could find-
Your love
Though I’ve fallen blind.
I don’t want to see you turn away from me
I don’t want to know which way you’ll walk when you go
Because if I can’t see, I could still believe that you want me.
Oct. 13, 1997
IMPRESSION
If it had only been coincidence
Upon the moment I had sensed you
And into the room you had soon appeared,
We never would have joined
And to each other would have never been endeared.
If it were but chance
Upon another meeting
Where you had wandered to my side,
Your memory would have mellowed
It would be sure to soon subside.
Knowing it is your spirit that orbits my own heart
If it was but only lust
My faith in Light you would not impart.
For it it were less than love
That shines upon us its sacred light,
The laughter would not have been angels
That walked beside us on our fateful night.
Oct 14, 1997
FATE’S DISGUISE
Closer now than then,
Towards our future do we stumble.
Closer once again,
Towards our future how I wonder.
Our past reads
Of but a line upon a script
Dream affair, a dream indeed,
Sweet love a phantom partnership.
Faster than it seems,
Slower to our hearts.
Gentle love unseen
Cast on my desire.
Out time it passes through
Graceful, guiding hands.
Hands that reach out for us,
With faith that understands.
Brighter than it appears,
A light within our eyes.
A step beyond reality,
We see through fate's disguise.
November 3, 1997
THE ONLY FACE
So long my eyes have traced your portrait
That if I fell blind
My hands would recognize your features by heart.
And if again we were to never kiss,
The sound of air passing the eloquence of your lips as you breathe
Would cast your face upon my memory.
I’ve held your image in my eyes so long
That if another was to stand before me I would feel lost.
Perhaps to light a candle for every time you’ve wandered through my mind,
I might light the way from creation to infinity
For as long within my soul you dwell.
And if someone other were to walk within my thoughts
They would be cast away by the ocean of memories I have for you.
To walk at my side,
He’d be swept away by the wind that only whispers your name.
The same wind that silences every candle-
Saving but only flames that shine with your light.
If there were not a myriad of candles,
But only one of boundless heat and light
To fire an exclusive chamber in the temple of my soul,
You would be seen as the keeper of its flame.
You who I have seen,
You with the shimmering eyes.
Eyes that shine like moonlight reflecting upon the waters of your soul.
The one whose face I see even in the greatest darkness.
The virtuous glow that if I was to lose
Would be sure to lose my way for-
I see your face, I see the light.
December 14 1997