Poetry
1998
Don't judge harshly
that which the soul
pours forth in its own discovery!
by year
1998
GRAIN OF SAND
If but one particle of sand clung to my body
Could I brush it off without a thought,
While the Sun still warmed my skin?
Hours later, mind at ease,
The earth turning from the sun-
Could it be the Light still burns
Though here, the darknss overcomes?
Lands apart, you hold my heart.
I sleep the dark, as the sun awakes your dream.
Rising again, it’s your turn for light
But in my dreams it’s just as bright.
On this distant beach, you’re out of reach
To the narrow sheep-like mind.
But as soon as I wake, a world away
A grain of sand in my bed I find.
If this serves only to make me smile
That somehow I’ve been with you awhile.
The sands of time are not confined
To the hourglass but to our world they bind.
In this next light, my waking day
To the waterside I’ll make my way.
As in my dreams we’ve walked the ocean floor,
On this beach I’ll find your grain of sand,
That in search of me has washed ashore.
Jan 27 1998
WAIT ON BLUES
Blue But not for you
Sad But not for me
You I might be waitin on you
Wait Wait and see
How long it takes the world to bring you back
How long it takes the world to bring you back
Back to me
Passing all the time in between the you and me
I’ve been stumbling cross the line of night and day
Night that waits and wonders with me, for so long
Darkness staring all the while back at me.
So long it takes the world to bring you back
So long it takes the world to bring you back
Back to me.
Wait A little longer
Fate Keeps on messing with my ming
Building up all these expectations
Wondering if you wonder how long too.
How long it takes the world to bring you back
How long it takes the world to bring you back
Back to me
So long
So long
March 1998
ALMOST GONE
How does the sky know when to rain
When I’m just trying to carry on and get along?
Every time on the day after you’ve gone.
Left me standing all alone
Like there was no room for goodbyes.
I must have been mistaken bout you babe
Beats the hell outta me why.
I’m running but my feet don’t hit the ground
I’d run the longest road to you
And yes it seems the one you’ve wandered down.
There’s a lake that has no water
You got me standing on the shore
And all it can do is rain
And I can’t take it no more.
If this road to you would ever end
Would you still be outta sight
Oh don’t leave me standing here with expectations.
With only midnight rain to wash my soul through the night.
HOODOO’S HAPPENIN’
Wondering who’s
Been walking through
This old town
Sun going down.
Don’t you think you better tell me now
Who’s been walking between me and you
You know who
You know who
Hoodoo’s happenin’ now
Who do you love
Who do you love
Bleeding sun lights the western sky
Blood red glow
In her eyes
In her eyes
Got to tell you babe, there’s something in the air
I know that she can’t do the things I can do
Things I can do
To you
Hoodoo’s happenin’ now
Who do you love
Who do you love
April 13 1998
THE MOMENT
You filled the moment as if now there would only ever be you.
On my mind, in the air, to all oblivion.
Strange pleasure I wanted to absorb,
To draw within me all energies around me that reminded me of you.
To cascade down the stream of memories the moment has unstopped.
Restless I paced as though at the next turn you might appear.
Thoughts of time spent near to you slowly wove themselves into the fabric of each now.
Endless, this passage of time was becoming one past new, the other a rebirth of your presence previously known to be close to my body.
So strong this air of you surrounded me, I could imagine time catching up to itself as thought the door had been left a sliver ajar.
NO longer hungry, I sat down mid-evening to relive our memories and my heart created such an ache from poor mind’s thoughts, my skin wanted to rush me to your side that we might once again melt together.
My eyes wanted to bring forth water that I might walk upon if ever I could be again at your side.
I could call you and past he ache into the release of your voice.
But sweet grasp upon my soul I thought I’d wallow and savor such anguish!
Saving up all such memories, reliving each again, and again, in layers, each time we’ve been apart.
And should we ever meet again, I would be but an unblinking, naked emotion before you.
To call you now! To end the shivers through my body from the caress of every memory of you stroking my consciousness. So revealing these pains can only point to love.
Yet how nearly impossible to feel this love as impossible to call without your number!
The phone then sinks into my arms, such an oversight!
Yet you don’t not leave my room, memories keep treading softly upon my body.
Eyes closed, yet sill I see your face. Skin reaching out seeking your energy.
If you should stand in front of me now, my eyes still closed in haunting memory, I would surely feel the touch of your shadow upon me.
April 21 1998
Song of No Words
Love of great love
This song of no words
To whom my song shall I sing?
As not one but two loves
This urge for song
To my heart they both do bring.
Love for each when our eyes do meet
Not in silence, but in song.
Into the temple of each my eyes do reach
Where with love our souls sing long.
Suren both of them
Their ears would listen
To hear the voice that does not pass upon my lips...
But of both who hear my soul's breath so near,
Whose heart and harmony to my song would reappear?
May 4 1998
MIDNIGHT RAIN
Walk, don’t run to me
Cox I’d rather sit here feeling sorry for me
Got to think of something clever to say
Don’t close your eyes, keep them talking to me.
Midnight rain
Standing out there with you
Can you feel it too
Between me and you
Midnight rain
In between the times we’ve met I’ve been trying to forget that I’ve been trying to forget about you
Instead I can’t remember anything but every little thing about you
Gonna take a long time when I lay you down
I think I like it, face to face, you standing before me now.
In midnight rain
Standing out there with you
Can you feel it too
Me and you
Between me and you
Pouring down love
Let it rain
Between me and you
It’s been pouring down love
Love
Repeat chorus
May 5 1998
TREMORS
If my darkness steals you light away again don't let go
You, you alone reach inside of me scare and claim my soul
Where you've gone inside of me,
I've never been it's just no place to be.
You've been seeing things that I don't know about me
Seeing things that scare me so about me
And I don't wanna know
Little tremors of love for you....
I know you've been wondering why it is that I run away
It's just that you scare the hell out of me
I guess, I guess I'll let you in
Just because you've been, so long inside already.
Seeing things that I don't know about me
Seeing things that scare me so about me
I guess I wanted to know
Somewhere, somehow, someway,
I knew you'd let me know
All they are, these little tremors, are love for you.
Little tremors of love for you.
May 12, 1998
COME WITH ME
Why does the sunrise remind me of yesterday
Should be thinkin' about all of those tomorrows
They just can't live in my head no more.
Walk a little farther down the road now baby
Who said our time would never be comin' down
Crossroads or fork in the road, I'm ready
Broken glass can't even cut me now.
Time keeps on creepin along
No matter how far we go, baby
It's an open road
Why don't you come with me.
Time doesn't wait for love
Got it bad and that might be good.
We never know how much time we got
So stop standing there without it,
Grinning like a halfwit.
Time keeps on creepin along
No matter how far we go, baby
It's a long, open road
And I'm wondering if you will come with me
It's not about you
It's just about what you keep letting go.....
Time keeps on creepin along
No matter how far we go, baby
It's a long, open road
And I'm wondering if you will come with me
Come with me
May 29, 1998
TO THE ONE WHO WILL HEAR
Love of great love
This song of no words
To whom my song shall I sing?
As not one but two loves
This urge for song
To my heart they both do bring.
Love for each when our eyes do meet
No in silence but in song.
Into the temple of each, my eyes do reach
Where with love our souls sing long.
But why not longer still
At my side will fate allow for
Either one to stay?
And why not shorter
Cannot time keep the seconds
Where they both stray so long away?
Suren both of them
Their ears would listen
To hear the voice that does not pass upon my lips
But only one will hear my soul breathe so near
Cannot the angels make him reappear?
May 4 1998
TOUCH ME
Do you know what you’ve given to me
You never needed to say a word
Can you give just a little more to me
You don’t have to speak just look at me and I’ll receive.
Your touch can give what words just can’t say
Touch me
If I’m on your mind, you’re walking through mine
Spend some time and reach out for me, I’m here now
Free you soul, come walk with me down that road
Your don’t have to speak just look at me and I’ll receive
Your touch can give what words just can’t say
Touch me
Touch me
Lately you’ve been feeling a lot like sand slipping through my hands
Don’t know what to do, seems I losing you
Give me something to believe in, something to hold onto
You don’t have to speak, just look at me and I’ll receive.
Your touch can give what words just can’t say....
June 2, 1998
Displacement
Lost underground,
Disemboweled from beneath your skin
Ice crystals caress your heart in caverns of your own fear.
Confused, with ear to the ground I listen...
For your heartbeat, displaced-
Quivering whispers of love in its final throes...if only I could hear.
June 9, 1998 CS
What I Can't Have
Hey you with those eyes
Here to hypnotize me
We've got to something to say
But we'll both probably just walk away.
But you should be with me
You could be with me.
Crossing paths at the wrong time
Makes it hard to make you mine
Love in disguise burns between our eyes
Fire from another time another place
Where you could be with me
You should be with me
I'm crazy for the one I can't have
Something makes me crazy for the ones I can't have (Chorus)
If he live far away, and I'm living here but he can't stay,
Then I'm a fool for you, fool for you babe.
Still see you in my mind, standing there
Still sweet the memory you and me.
So much for destiny to carry us away
Gonna have to, gonna have to find you again.
Chorus
July 1998
Tales of Love
And if I could I would be, the woman
One day I will be
I just thought that you might be, who you’re gonna be one day
Right now she said through her tears washing him away.
There’s something love wants you to know.
Something love cries out.
And all I can do is tell their tale of love
Tell these tales of love
Lost and found and kept
Locked somewhere in time.
Oh my god how could it be seven months, five days
Since he went away, she cried as she let him go
Halfway around the world, he was wondering about her,
I think I love her he said, but I might as well forget about her she can’t be thinking bout me anyway
But there’s something love wants you to know
Something love cries out.
All I can do is tell their tales of love
Tell these tales of love
Lost and found and kept
Locked somewhere in time
If someone could answer me I would ask them
What does it take to believe- in love.
First they laughed then they cried, it was so simple
Just tell the truth, tell how you feel
It’s something love wants you to know, It’s what love’s been crying out.
All I can do is tell their tales of love
Tell these tales of love
Lost and found and kept
Locked somewhere in time.